My new theme


I have been blogging for nearly 10 years. Although I haven’t done as much blogging the last five. I keep saying that I am reorganizing myself. I accidentally deleted half of my original posts so now I have nothing to show for any of it.

I spent the last few years rewriting as many missing posts as I could. Now I am just now getting back on track. So far blogging is just a hobby. I still feel as if it is my spiritual calling. This just means that even if I don’t make money at it, it can still serve a higher purpose and make a difference in people’s lives.

Maybe that is the often overlooked truth in life. In a money-centric society we feel as if we aren’t accomplishing as much if we aren’t accumulating capital. In reality we are making a difference in our service to others and rich in other ways that cannot be measured in dollars.

I always look forward to your comments. Till my next post I have to go find other ways to “unleash the beast”. For some reason that sounds perverted no matter how I say it.

Minimalism: Making room for more


Now that I have simplified my life over the last six years, I am discovering that part of the secret to making money is solving complex problems. Man has a tendency to complicate things and this is actually where the money is at. The simple life may be the good life but it is not where the money is.


Being a minimalist is good. To a point, that is. But becoming a minimalist is not about the lack of ambition that many people think it is. Even the folks over at The Minimalist website (the Beckers in Arizona) consider themselves a middle class family.
Minimalism is all about prioritizing what you want in life and making balance.

It is all about knowing yourself and what you truly want out of life. Essentially you minimize the clutter and maximize your potential elsewhere.

As someone on my social media feed said, the best way to find your calling in life is to ask yourself what problem you would like to solve.


The best way to market yourself is to make the problem sound as complicated as possible and then in the interview you go and make yourself sound like you are the only one who is able to solve said problem.

Play the game. Or white man’s game, or whatever you call it. Although it is not really just the white man’s game anymore.


My ability to simplify as a freelance writer resulted in getting paid less for jobs. When you get paid by the word, it is not a good idea to simplify content into less words. I read somewhere that even in novels, the authors have to insert fluff. The result is a 500 page novel may in all actuality just be a 100+ page short story.


Factor in that every time the author mentions a name brand product that the advertiser pays a bonus to the publisher and then subsequently to the author.


So basically, the secret to making money is to overthink and overcomplicate. Then proceed to solve the problem by creating another problem. Or maybe two or three more. Why not be an overachiever?
Keep doing this for four or five decades until you can retire.

To look to the future, study the past


No jobs in the future? The idea of having a job is so 20th century. In fact most of the things we stress over we were able to do without for centuries. We may have been better off in some areas.

If you want to see what the future holds just study history. Mankind is one colossal experiment of hitting bottom and starting over. Usually within a span of 2000 years.

We may be in an awakening now. They will forget all about it within one generation. A new age will begin and within a few centuries man will corrupt that too.

We are not going to suddenly”evolve” out of something we have been doing for centuries.

Maybe it’s a blessing in disguise.

Before and after awakening: How finding God ruined my life


I saw something funny on a friend’s Facebook page the other day. It was a meme featuring the Will Smith in his Fresh Prince role from the 1990’s. The meme was captioned “how did you find God?” at the top. At the bottom was the opening line to the theme of Fresh Prince of Bel-Aire.

        “I’d like you to take a minute and sit right there as I tell you how I became the Fresh Prince of a town called Bel-Aire.”-Theme song to Fresh Prince of Bel-Aire. (1990-1996).

Before the Awakening

The meme got me thinking about everything I lost the last few years since my Awakening started in 2011. I used to be ambitious in my 20’s. I was going to church on my own for the first time. I also noticed most spiritual/religious types appear to be less ambitious. 

I too started losing my ambition and spent much of my 20’s and into my 30’s struggling with mental illness. On top of my growing lack of ambition, I had the spiritual insight that even the entire mental health field was just a game and had enough conviction to avoid medications.

This separated me from the church I was going to and ended up resulting in the end of my first marriage in my mid 30’s. Further spiritual growth led to a loss of religious zeal (like I ever was much into religion in the first place). I also shifted further to the left in my ideologies and discovered “liberalism” wasn’t such a bad word after all as I felt a sense of freedom, or liberation.

Then I discovered the Middle Way. This was a Buddhist concept, but in a world that politicized everything we call it Libertarianism these days. That’s another topic entirely.

After the Awakening

After I experience brief homeless, I had the privilege of discovering that there were many people who chose homelessness as a way of simply opting out of the economy. Some just did day labor for money and paid for their smartphones (which basically have all you need on them anyway).

In a sense, a homeless shelter was basically an intentional community. I could have gotten into the life and been just as fulfilled writing on my blog at (https://dailyevotionals.wordpress.com) whether I made any money or not.

I already found my purpose in my life as a writer. It’s not about the money. Capitalism is all about raising your standard of living up. It is also basically a giant game of Monopoly.  It’s not inherently a bad thing, except for turning your life into a game. Although you can spending so much time maximizing wealth that you miss out on life entirely. Not to mention ruining your health because of all the stress.

Relationships have gotten so shallow and empty because everyone is so focused on money and materialism that no one really cares about anything deeper. And if you are not a materialist, you will probably have a hard time being a capitalist.

All is not lost

I am not entirely lost with my lack of ambition. I just work for basic needs now. The simpler life means I am healthier. To this I discovered that even health insurance does not cost as much without insurance and even more negotiable. Many urgent care centers have payment plans.

I am still ambitious but my ambition is more practical. It is still empowering being able to work to pay for your own place and enjoy the privilege of driving a nice car. Building a business, or a ministry, is fulfilling in itself.

Men like to build things.

Like it says in the Bible, everything that man builds in the tree of knowledge of good/evil (material world) will be thrown down and burned up. Only spiritual fruit designed to better serve humanity will last forever.  You can still get rich but maybe not as rich if you primary focus is creating family and community.

You might even be called a Socialist! Although I’m sure the Kingdom of God is beyond any earthly kingdom.

Practice mindful meditation and learn to live in the moment which lasts for eternity


You have probably heard people say all your life how short life is. This is mostly because we only see life on this side of whatever lies beyond it. Also compared to the characters displayed in the Bible, we live much shorter lives versus the 900+ years they lived. I wonder sometimes if they weren’t counting their years in months back then. If I were to celebrate my birthday monthly, I just passed 500 months old. I don’t think those restaurants which give you a free meal on your birthday would honor that though.

Another reason people think life is short is because their life goes so fast. That is usually because they are not really living it. In place of living life, we are more focused on surviving and trying to sustain it. The end result is that it gets away from us.

In the last 8 years I begin to practice meditation more. We tell ourselves that we don’t have time to meditate, but we make time for what is important. Plus I don’t have to sit still to meditate. That would actually bore me.

The practice of mindful meditation just means staying focused on the present. I get bored so easily that my mind wonders and I lose focus and daydream. Meditation just keeps me grounded in the now. In the end it is really all we have.

It is good to have goals because that keeps us alive and gives us a sense of purpose. But the future is not guaranteed or promised, no matter what version of the prosperity gospel you ascribe to. Focus on the now and the future will take care of itself.

In the past few years, my life has slowed down. Almost too slow sometimes. But I remind myself that life is not too short, because it never really ends. Death is just a passing. It would take more faith to believe that this short span of time here on earth is all we have. Even a lot of atheists don’t really believe that this life is all their is. Some of them just don’t get hung up on the afterlife because we still have to get through this life first.